I have never been a big fan of roller coasters. If I must, I can usually stomach the Mini Mine Train and even the Runaway Mine - but only if I have to. Once, on a trip to Six Flags, I rode that indoor one. It was a have to - Dean was with Eric, Bill was with Ryne, and I had to ride with Sarah - her mom has back trouble and she watched the two youngest. So, that was not fun for me - I don't like the not knowing what is ahead - don't like the sudden drops - don't like the really fast slamming into the really slow. Nope, I don't like them at all.
I think that is what makes the last few weeks/months so difficult. I feel like I am on a roller coaster.
I don't know what is ahead. I don't like the sudden drops into situations over which we have no control. I don't like how Dean gets a call about a position that he must hurry up and call, hurry up and send information, hurry up and look for a place to live, to have it all suddenly slammed into either a complete stop or a s-l-o-o-o--w down and wait situation. Nope, I don't like it at all.
A roller coaster only lasts a short time - we know that there is only a set distance on a ride. We don't know how long this is going to last. We don't have a picture of the track. We just keep riding.
I know that a lot of this is lack of control- I don't have control over the situation. Dean doesn't have control over the situation.
God has control - do I trust him to handle it? Can I let it go? What does letting go in this situation look like?
This, for me, is the hardest of those questions - what does letting go look like in this situation? We have sent out thousands of resumes/applications. Do we stop and let those work through the system? Do we stop spending hours every day searching websites looking for a job?
What does letting go look like?
I think that is what makes the last few weeks/months so difficult. I feel like I am on a roller coaster.
I don't know what is ahead. I don't like the sudden drops into situations over which we have no control. I don't like how Dean gets a call about a position that he must hurry up and call, hurry up and send information, hurry up and look for a place to live, to have it all suddenly slammed into either a complete stop or a s-l-o-o-o--w down and wait situation. Nope, I don't like it at all.
A roller coaster only lasts a short time - we know that there is only a set distance on a ride. We don't know how long this is going to last. We don't have a picture of the track. We just keep riding.
I know that a lot of this is lack of control- I don't have control over the situation. Dean doesn't have control over the situation.
God has control - do I trust him to handle it? Can I let it go? What does letting go in this situation look like?
This, for me, is the hardest of those questions - what does letting go look like in this situation? We have sent out thousands of resumes/applications. Do we stop and let those work through the system? Do we stop spending hours every day searching websites looking for a job?
What does letting go look like?
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